the light in my life,

had been extinguished

i am freaking not a psl. yeahh. instead, there are some people who unexpectedly became a psl (maybe i shouldn't even be saying this, because i myself don't even qualify to be one of them anyway) it just goes to show that

appearance vs reality est tres differente. ):

seriously, it shows how loser i am and how i will be tres miserable my whole rg life. )))))))))))))))): AND I BLOODY NEED and WANT that leadership position. and there is none left for me. what the?..

for a moment, i thought i had a chance in making it. i was wrong. dead wrong

WRONG WRONG WRONG

but the thing is that, there are beaucoup de personnes qui qualify to be a psl but didnt get in. this might sound extremely biased and whatever (could be that i'm really angry, comprend moi) but i think those with 3rd lang, house comm stuff and what nots MOSTLY did not get in. (although they were real capable. not saying i could because i wasn't even meant to be ANYWAY) fine, we have a lot of commitments. so what? if we tried out, and spend our precious time to sit and wait and go for the interview, it shows very clearly to me that we are passionate and will put 110% best to psb, non? and there is the beta. i thought ms ong told me VERY CLEARLY that my beta wasn't gonna affect ANY of the leadership position that i'm gonna try out next year. and that includes psb? which means they shouldn't judge us by that beta no matter what? but with all this i have, i don't need a rocket science to tell me why i didn't get in. simple. ( I SUCK MUCH)

you can call me a mis-believer, but whatever lah. i can't get angrier than this.

i thought love would last forever. i was wrong..

EVEN THEN

and will be my bestie forever and ever

although she can piss me off VERY WELL with the usual ( i hate my knees)
she taught me what true besties can be (((((((:

<3>

i would need a rocket science to define our friendship. (X